one more thought…

If anyone reads this at all, if this is just a mental note for others to follow, if this one day becomes relevant…

Death is constantly on my mind these days, I think I’d like for this blog to be printed and bound together as one physical piece.  Similar to the diary of Sebastian in “Cruel Intentions”.  It may not contain all of my thoughts, merely thoughts I feel confident enough to type, but they are special to me and I hope that they would some day be special to you. 

Heres to hoping for far more posts. 

 

<3

Delicious Ambiguity.

I’ve realized that time is precious and it does not wait for us to make our move, we must seize each and every moment of life while we can.  There is no time to pout and wonder the ‘what-ifs’ of life because frankly the ‘what-ifs’ will rarely become reality.  There is no time to delay; if you have a thought, speak it… if you have a dream, accomplish it… if you have a vision, make it one that everyone can see.  Fear not of the unknown, the unknown is what makes life what it is. 

Carpe Diem my friends, Carpe Diem.

this is amazing.

i would most certainly get along with its’ creator.

 

 

<3

I’ll let you in on a secret…

Remember the post I wrote in regards to “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower”?  I wrote it with the intentions of going back months after writing it to think fondly on such a time in my life…

Truth is.  I read that post all the time.  In fact it’s the only post I’ve re-read as much as I have.  

Ever since, I’ve been endlessly searching for the feeling of being infinite.

I’m afraid it will never come…

i like to post things i’d like to do, in hopes i do them.

I’d like to take a break from civilization.  Away from society and its repercussions.  Away from money and people and relationships.  Away from cellphones and computers and technology.  

I’d like to keep my ipod though, because a world without music is a boring world.  

I’d like to sit in the middle of nowhere.  And come up with the most creative thoughts I could ever form.  

I’d like to listen to the most beautiful, heart-felt, energy filled music.  

And live.

And feel.

And create.

Create anything.  

Ideas, Concepts, Plans, Goals, Drawings, Paintings, Art.  

I’d like to move across the country and succeed.  

I like to imagine this world in my head.  

And the world involves you, and all of your beauty, that you rarely show.  Because you deserve to be  a part of it. 

Would you like that?

sometimes you need more than 140 characters.

Have you ever had thoughts in your head that just need to be released?  I’ve been having those moments a lot lately.  Maybe it’s because I haven’t been releasing creative energy as much as I would like to this summer.  Maybe it’s the belly full of rice pilaf that I had been craving.  Maybe it’s the blog that I just read, which inspired me.  Or maybe it’s the series of unfortunate events that have surrounded me recently.   

I always think about blogging and how inspirational and intellectual I’d like it to be,  but when I sit down the words just don’t come out.  I could think the most beautiful words but they don’t seem to connect with my finger tips.   I spend a lot of time staring at my words in confusion, but they usually just aren’t what I intended them to be.  

I always envision my posts to be life-changing.  But in the end I don’t think they really affect anyone but me.  I think that bothers me, I want this to be something people read and then walk away reflecting on their own life.  

Ever since I first saw the movie “In The Land Of Women” I’ve had this idea that every letter I write or every blog I post has to be this beautiful script that can be put on some sort of pedestal.  ”The type of letter that everyone should receive once in their life”.  

Is it fear?  Fear of embarrassment?  Fear that I shouldn’t say too much on some website?  Probably.  

There are plenty of things I’d love to type, but frankly don’t have the guts to do so.  

Well, if I’ve learned anything from Synecdoche, New York (a movie that is nothing short of perfection, which I have previously blogged about) it is that “…the truth is I’m so angry and the truth is I’m so fucking sad, and the truth is I’ve been so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long have been pretending I’m OK, just to get along, just for, I don’t know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own, and their own is too overwhelming to allow them to listen to or care about mine. Well, fuck everybody. Amen. “

So here goes.

I can’t help but think who’s going to go next.  I feel horrible for thinking this way, but the thought is far more apparent now than ever before.  I’m only 21, I shouldn’t think this way, right?  Or is it better to think this way?  Will we appreciate life and the people we love more now?  Will we stop taking things for granted?  

I want to accomplish so much in such a short amount of time, but I can’t help but wonder when my time will come.  Or when anyone’s time will come.  Life has freaked me out since I was little.  It is by far the most confusing thing I’ve ever experienced.  I’m not sure I understand any aspect of it really, I try to, but it just continues to throw me knuckle balls.  It seems like we were thrown into this world we were never meant to understand, and spend most of our time here trying to figure out something we’ll never grasp.    

My relationship with life is a lot like my relationship with math.  You could explain every formula to me in vivid detail, but at the end of the day that side of my brain is far less sufficient than the other and fully comprehending it is just a task I’d rather not attempt to complete.  

Well enough babbling for now, a small weight has been lifted.  Here’s to more honest posts.  

Ciao.

Brianna

an important message.

I think, have always thought, and admittedly sometimes forget… the importance of telling those you love, that you love them.

So please know, you are loved.

My family.

My friends.

Distant friends, close friends.

Best friends. 

Roommates, past and present. 

Whether I met you in fifth grade playing flag football or in Science class because Earth Sciences and Planet Geology was NOT made for art majors.

Whether I met you because you lived around the corner from me growing up looking for water rats or because we facebooked each other from our rooms in the Commodore and explored San Francisco together the first day we moved in.

Whether we have a bad past or a beautiful one. 

Let it be known, that today and forever, I love you with all of my heart.  

 

 

 

Rest In Peace, Sean LeBlanc.  Forever in our hearts and Forever missed.

alone?

you know that feeling, when you ride a train or bus.  

the feeling that you’re surrounded by a bunch of people, but feel completely alone.

so you look around and see everyone with their headphones on and cell phones out, rapidly typing and nodding their heads to a beat you will never hear.

most of the time the people appear grumpy, tired, or in a rush. 

when i listen to this song on the train, i know that i am infinitely happier than every single person surrounding me.

this song is perfection.

i am yet to not enjoy every second of it, every time i listen to it, which is quite often. 

i highly recommend the cd and the videos that go along with the songs. 

great band. 

 

Manchester Orchestra - Mean Everything To Nothing.

all i want…

is to:

have long hair.

buy lots of adorable/trendy dresses & skirts.

look at inspirational, artful and thought provoking blogs filled with random photographs, words, ideas, and music.

have a boo, but only sometimes.

laugh.

photograph.

inspire others, always.

have deep intellectual conversations with others that make you feel good.

create.

travel.

lay out in the sun and get toasty.

rock beach hair.

look someone in the eyes with my big eyes, and smile.

 

be this fabulous.

Bri.

The time has come…

Recession Rosie, originally uploaded by Brianna Calello Photography.

Hello all,

I guess this is one of the ‘to whom it may concern’ type of deals. For the past 2 months or so I have considered taking a big step in my photography career and I have come to the conclusion that it is time for me to officially make that step.

Well what is that step you are probably wondering?

I will no longer be shooting promos/portraits/favors for free. I feel bad in some cases because a lot of the work I help out with is for friends. But at some point I have to go in a direction that will better not only them but me.

Being that this is my first step in a ‘professional’ direction I will be charging at a low cost, but to not charge at all is not benefitting me in anyway. Unless the projects are done in a collaboration format.

As far as pricing goes… It all depends on the situation and scenario, I’ve worked up some numbers in my head but it will vary per shoot. Any questions feel free to ask.

I hope this does not lead you in a different direction, and I look forward to working with you.

Sincerely,
Brianna